Emerging from Numbness
This is an interesting read/book list: Breaking Free From Hustle Culture I have been on long term disability since late 2018 and have filled that time with dr appts, therapy, and a whole lot of rest. At first, the burn out from my dedication to “hustle culture” made it easy to disappear into the morass of oblivion. I was working incredibly hard, just not on tangible things. I have been on a new stimulant medication for a week now. It keeps me awake—sometimes for as long as 19 hours per day. It is the oddest adjustment, having previously spent 14 hours per day napping/sleeping. Awake does not mean I have energy. I am exhausted still but the medication makes me restless and unable to slip into the quiet of sleep until it has bled itself out of my system. In the last week, I have tried to “catch up” on the things I felt like I had let lapse—organization of digital files, bullet journaling, reading, deleting emails (4000+), clearing Ebooks I have finished reading on my phone (100 of the